When i start something.. i often wonder whether it is only a starting that i'm contributing to or whether behind the start, i've left an ending. whether the ending has been been brought or not is a concern or not.
this requires more thoughts, much of which are abstruse to me as i encounter an accrue of these thoughts every single moment i breathe.
To start or to end is not a choice.
I will call this the butterfly effect of my life. for if i really jot down the control points of my life this beginning or the end is out of range by a large magnitude.
thinking is such a waste of time.